I am so thankful that NaNo is almost over, I do not know what to do with myself. One second--I just did my count and I have to say I am exhausted. I am tired of writing for a quota. I like the lazy way I write, which is not really that much; it's every day but it is not with this type of frantic drive. I lose a few hundred words in the count on my MacBook which I do not understand, but okay. On the train home, I was typing on my iPod touch, which is a little peaceful because I cannot do a word count there, but I can type and save the draft in my e-mail which I am using almost like Word. I have not written, I think, except the first few words of this story at home. Almost all of it was written on the road. But this week, I am going to have to change that. I have to write right after I finish this post. This week I am not allowed to read a novel, I cannot play BookWorm on my Touch, I cannot even use the Zen Meditation app on my Touch---everything has to be related to this story which I am not even sure what I am going to do with it because I do not believe in outlines, but the story keeps going in ways it writes itself and I am just going along for the ride and thankful, yes thankful...thankful for the craft that I knew I wanted to do since I was 7 years old, thankful for the craft that soothes me when I am sad, just by having a pen in my hand or keys under my fingers. The craft that reveals things to me, things about myself that I did not know were inside me. The craft that is my vision more than my eyes are. The craft that makes me do NaNoWriMo and know I am going to get to the finish line and I am going to push myself as much as I can. the craft that makes me have to finish this post because I got to a point where I really feel like writing the story now. No, the MacBook depicted is not mine, I have not even the newest one, but sometimes it feels like gold when I create on it..
Monday, November 23, 2009
Thankful
I am so thankful that NaNo is almost over, I do not know what to do with myself. One second--I just did my count and I have to say I am exhausted. I am tired of writing for a quota. I like the lazy way I write, which is not really that much; it's every day but it is not with this type of frantic drive. I lose a few hundred words in the count on my MacBook which I do not understand, but okay. On the train home, I was typing on my iPod touch, which is a little peaceful because I cannot do a word count there, but I can type and save the draft in my e-mail which I am using almost like Word. I have not written, I think, except the first few words of this story at home. Almost all of it was written on the road. But this week, I am going to have to change that. I have to write right after I finish this post. This week I am not allowed to read a novel, I cannot play BookWorm on my Touch, I cannot even use the Zen Meditation app on my Touch---everything has to be related to this story which I am not even sure what I am going to do with it because I do not believe in outlines, but the story keeps going in ways it writes itself and I am just going along for the ride and thankful, yes thankful...thankful for the craft that I knew I wanted to do since I was 7 years old, thankful for the craft that soothes me when I am sad, just by having a pen in my hand or keys under my fingers. The craft that reveals things to me, things about myself that I did not know were inside me. The craft that is my vision more than my eyes are. The craft that makes me do NaNoWriMo and know I am going to get to the finish line and I am going to push myself as much as I can. the craft that makes me have to finish this post because I got to a point where I really feel like writing the story now. No, the MacBook depicted is not mine, I have not even the newest one, but sometimes it feels like gold when I create on it..
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An inspiring post, Fidencia. I can sympathize with sacrificing the pleasure of reading a novel while in the midst of a writing or editing marathon. Just this weekend I "allowed" myself the treat of reading an entire novel while taking a break from editing. (I'm not doing NaNo; I'm too busy with editing and the rest of my life.)
ReplyDeleteI commend you for your persistence and hope you polish that NaNo novel so it's ready for submission to the publisher of your dreams. Keep us posted!
Lis
Fidencia, thank you for the camaraderie and the support during Nano. It was my first try, and while we all were writing independently, the team spirit was a great help. Elizabeth Palladino
ReplyDeleteFidencia, you are a great cheerleader and you made the 50,000 words. I struggled most of the month. Life just really got thick for me in November. Now I can breathe. But your cheers is what kept me going.
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