Monday, November 23, 2009
I am so thankful that NaNo is almost over, I do not know what to do with myself. One second--I just did my count and I have to say I am exhausted. I am tired of writing for a quota. I like the lazy way I write, which is not really that much; it's every day but it is not with this type of frantic drive. I lose a few hundred words in the count on my MacBook which I do not understand, but okay. On the train home, I was typing on my iPod touch, which is a little peaceful because I cannot do a word count there, but I can type and save the draft in my e-mail which I am using almost like Word. I have not written, I think, except the first few words of this story at home. Almost all of it was written on the road. But this week, I am going to have to change that. I have to write right after I finish this post. This week I am not allowed to read a novel, I cannot play BookWorm on my Touch, I cannot even use the Zen Meditation app on my Touch---everything has to be related to this story which I am not even sure what I am going to do with it because I do not believe in outlines, but the story keeps going in ways it writes itself and I am just going along for the ride and thankful, yes thankful...thankful for the craft that I knew I wanted to do since I was 7 years old, thankful for the craft that soothes me when I am sad, just by having a pen in my hand or keys under my fingers. The craft that reveals things to me, things about myself that I did not know were inside me. The craft that is my vision more than my eyes are. The craft that makes me do NaNoWriMo and know I am going to get to the finish line and I am going to push myself as much as I can. the craft that makes me have to finish this post because I got to a point where I really feel like writing the story now. No, the MacBook depicted is not mine, I have not even the newest one, but sometimes it feels like gold when I create on it..